This is my Bad Day Letter

So if you’re looking at this then the day probably sucked and you’re dealing with the depression of it all over again. It might be because you aren’t making friends/ are lonely it might be school is getting hard and you are super stressed, or people are getting on your case. Here’s the deal though no matter the situation people love you and you deserve love and affection plus NOBODY wants you to die/ kill yourself. So when the going gets tough look at these and remember Berkeley is just another city will a million people you WILL find people who care and people that are like you. You did it in SoCal you can do it anywhere now get off your butt and get Happy cause God loves you and so do your real friends.

Dear Jennifer, you have a cute way of showing how you care for people that you actually care about. If we were in a room together, I
would be excited to see what you have been up to and catch up. You and I should one day go super crazy on ice cream. If you hugged me I would hug you right back. You
are strong, amazing person that many ...lol ~Edson Marquez

The truth is I think your one of the most responsible, dedicated, focused people I've ever met! You always do what you have to, and I admire that(: your also a very nice and positive person(: your very friendly, and your super smart! I love how when you don't understand something, you work on it until you get it. I miss hanging out with you and edson and courtney! xD you guys were funny! I like how you don't let other people bring you down, you just focus on your goals and you get there, no matter what. Your an awesome person jennifer, really, you are :) ~ Martha Montoya

If you feel that you have to work to change people's perceptions of you, they are not a good fit for you. You should be able to just be yourself without having to worry about their perceptions. When you can just be yourself and be accepted for that, those will be true friends. (I think you already know that, right?)~ Mrs. Aragon

Hang in there buddy, I'm sure when you do find people as weird as us that accept you they're gonna be the most kick butt friends ever.
[but not as kick me of course ;3 jk jk]~Danielle Cuen

What you're feeling is completely normal, especially at such a big school like Berkeley. Unlike high school, where you have built-in friends, college takes more effort. Yes, initially my friends were my roommate and people in my dorm. However, I branched out to different clubs to meet people with similar interests. Christian student groups are great for that. My church said its sister church Redeemer Presbyterian Church has a student group at Berkeley. Going to church with other students will help, too. Feeling small and lonely come with being a freshman in college. I'll definitely keep you in prayer and don't hesitate to write or call if you want to talk more. :)

Love, Your Mama Wong

· Thank you so much for telling me about this! You know I'm here!! When ever I get down and depressed haul out this quote and read it as much as I can.

"You are an important part of God's plan. Your part may not seem or feel of great significance to you and you may not even realize what it is; nonetheless, it is an important part that only you can uniquely fill."

There is always a reason why we get blasted by the devil. Usually it's because we are right on track with God and the enemy doesn't like that nor does he want us to get to the place God wants us. Satan knows our weakest points and and always hits us there. A pastor once told me, when satan comes and wages war against us just remind him of his future in hell. what ever he throws at you will never be as bad as his future in hell. He knows it's coming!
Over the years I have learned to be encouraged by my depression. It's the one thing that can really get me down but it also shows me how close I was to God. He's there to pull me through it all. He's there cheering me on and showing me that I am on the right track because the enemy is getting worried!
So GREAT JOB JENNIFER!!This struggle is spiritual and the enemy is attacking you because YOU are on the right road! Keep pressing into God. DON'T GIVE UP! Your stronger then that, I know! :)

I am prayin for you and I have sent some angles to fight for you too! Keep me posted everyday if you need to! I'm here.
I love ya!
~Kim

By the way, have I told you I love you? Well, I do. Have I told you I am proud of you? I am. ~Mom

I miss you, my little munchkin. I wish I could cuddle with you. ^-^ Sounds like you are enjoying yourself at college, especially in tackling people in rugby. :) I love you! ♥ ~Mckenzie Stoops

hehehe My first thoughts of you were: "Who's this chick and why is she calling Jess 'Kiwi'? *plays ninja and 'this chick' enters game* Boy, is she competative....and ugh, i think she made my kidneys burst with that hug.."

My thoughts now about you: "MY WITTO JENNIFER!! :D She gives the BESTEST HUGS IN THE WORLD and is a great cuddle buddy. She is still very competative, but she will NEVER win our poke war. She is super BEAUTIFUL and is an amazing woman. I LOVE HER SO MUCH!! <3"

Scripture

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Matthew 5: 10-11

For God so loved the world that he gave his only son that whosoever believe in him shall not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send his son to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whosoever believes in him is not condemned but whosoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son. John 3: 16-18

Yes I will be edditing this and adding other pieces that remind me that life is good

Calorie count

So this past weekend my girls and I went to the mall. We went to the mall for 7 hours and I was wearing heels!!!!! OWWWWWW!!!!!! we had fun, shared a guava lava smoothie, got too many samples, I got a pair of jeans, went into the 2 story forever 21 it's HUGE, saw a cute guy and played peekaboo with him, and got frozen yogurt (FY). While getting the FY we decided that as a group we need to go on diets yeah!! we now have a system each of us is trying to eat less than 1500 calories but in good food.

So far I'm doing really good my first day was 1050 calories and today I'm at around 1250 ish so thats good. We are also making sure we exercise I've got that covered softball 3 hours. So I'm hopin to stick with this and loose some weight before summer/ prom/ softball season. Well pray that this works and that I keep doing well.

PS our hamster just had babies

Girls day (plus tom) p.s. jon counts as a girl still

So I was right on Sunday I hung out with my super awesome amazing friends just sorta differently than expected. I thought we were gonna hang out at church but then Kiwi left me a message and somehow we ended up at my house. Don't know don't care it was fun. What we basically did was a sleepover a second time. Again we played picture telofone but this time we had Caitlyn (sp) I'm sorry to say but all of us except jess and danielle are terrible artists but it was crazy because of it so therefor fun. so to the fun part.

Because we decided to hang out at my house we were able to do the hair dye. I am now a proud owner of a blue, turquoise, and pink head. I like my hair this way and it's fun. I also got my finger nails and toe nails painted. Sorry Maris but I have to redo the fingers I chewed off 2 of the fingers paint. The girls then curled my hair and did my makeup plus they picked out my wardrobe. All over as Maris and Jess kept saying I looked sexy. So then we went to FUSE which was very fun and I learned about how to change myself.

So Meg will kill me if I don't mention this. While we were at FUSE I spotted this really hot guy in the back of the church. Think blonde side swept hair, tallish like 6'-6'3", and ripped. Lets just say I blushed profusely when Meg pointed him out and I told her I had already seen him. Yes if you're wondering I was way too much a chicken to go and ask his name and say hi. There you have it that was SUNDAY

sleepover

Call the presses Jennifer Costley has friends!!!!! Friends who are girls!!!!!! REAL GIRL FRIENDS!!!!! OMG SHOCKING isn't it. Well I do which makes me happy :) so we decided Jen you have to have another sleepover. I did, it was on fri-sat and it was amazing. We had a boy intervention, I don't know him but I'm told he's a sleazeball, played balderdash and picture telephone. (Jess it was not a candle I saw) We also had some good girl time just hanging out and having heart to hearts. Oh and at 2 in the morning we made eggs, grilled cheese, and cookies. Overall a very good night and tomorrow after church we're dying peoples hair pink I love my friends.

FOR JESS/KIWI, MEG, MARIS, MICKY/KENZE, TAYLOR, DANIELLE, and FAITH/FAIFERS

Remembering

So today was fun and I'm am happy to say I didn't die (that will be explained later). I got to dress up practice and write to my best boy-friend.

So the day started off with first period which I was both dreading and anticipating. We had mock congress. I love politics it's my passion so this was alot of fun but I had some guys in my group that played party lines so it wasn't as fun. Basically I wrote a bill and we discussed it our committee I thought it was well thought out but because I was republican and the majority of my group was democrat we couldn't get my bill passed. I had fun debating but I'm also sorta angry with them for being so imovable in their ways when my bill would have been a great benefit to alot of people. I just have to learn from this though because as a politician this i going to constantly happen in life so i'm just going to have to learn to take the losses with the wins.

The second part, the not dying, was also fun. Last week my coach announced we were going to run from my school to Los Alisos. If you know the schools you know the run is about a mile. For most athletes that's cake the problem is I'm not most athletes I have asthma so this was going to be really tough. To top things off the coach decided she was going to run as my partner because she wanted to make sure I didn't die. I mean it was a sweet gesture but I do know my limits. Anyways so we went off on the run and I did good. I beat my coach because I ran for more time than her and I didn't get sick while running another one of my running flaws. This for me eualled a good day. I didn't die running. Then to top it off for once in my life someone looked at me and Courtney my best girl-friend and guessed I was older if you don't know her you don't understand but whatever. Though we think the girl is on something because she guessed Court was a sophmore like 15 when most people guess her to be a sophmore in college.

The last fun part of my day that I'm going to mention is the fact that I got to write my Best boy-friend, brother if you know my whole extended family dealio. He's in basic training for the navy right now so he's in Illinois. Him and I are like peas and carrots (thank you Forest Gump). He gets me and I can totally be myself around him so I can revert back to wild gun loving tomboy that sits with him and plays halo, star wars, or other video games for hours. Well he's in training and I've been so busy that I haven't got to write him so I actually got some time today and I feel really good now. I'm hoping he's doing okay and that he stays safe while over there. I have to put this in the end because when he finally sees this he'll kill me for it which makes it that much more fun.

He's going to become one of the village people, "IN THE NAVY..." I choose either the Indian or the construction worker you guys vote!

Rabbit food and getting mugged

So today I went to work, which is babysitting kids, and then my family decided to go out to eat cause I was hungry I know my life story hungry. My sisters wanted to make chili and I Chinese. Whole big argument so somehow we ended up going to seal beach to a place called the Beachwood BBQ.

The reason we went there is cause my sisters had seen it when they were walking near the pier and it had a bunch of weird food like buffalo and antelope. I'm into trying game meats so they suggested it hence we went. I got this thing called New Brunswick Stew. In it was chicken rabbit corn, lima beans, and other green stuff. This was my first time ever having rabbit and you wanna know what I couldn't tell the difference between the rabbit and chicken total rip off. I even liked the green stuff better than the meat and I hate green stuff. So yeah I'm gonna have to try rabbit again.

The other thing that happened today was that after eating my family walked to the beach. Just as we were going to hop on the pier my dad turns to look at something and so do I low and behold I get attacked. Luckily not a stalker or a real mugger but one of my besties, McKenzie who saw me while we were walking. So yeah she runs over full speed to give me a hug on the side. The problem is I turned and had a toothpick in my mouth. Luckily no injuries but having a toothpick shoved down your throat isn't fun (Love you kenze). It all turned out okay but her new nickname is "mugger" because when my dad saw her he thought one of us was going to get mugged. FUN DAY

Reasons and Puppy Dogs

So there have been two things that have been going through my head today I want to explain he colors of m blog and it's name. Plus some other big stuff happened today that I wanna talk about.

Okay so my blog is pink. That is such a wrong color for me I like black and blue. I'm a tomboy through and through and it's just the truth but I'm also learning that it's not bad for me to be a girl too. This whole process started back in 9th grade when I promised a friend I would let her take me shopping before she moved back to Arkansas (Yes this is all Breana's fault), but I was ready for the change. Too many years have I spent pushing people away because I couldn't stand getting hurt in the end. The tomboy was an easy way to make sure nobody got close so I kept it. Now I'm trying to actually make friends so I'm changing hence pink wall paper.

The other big thing that happened was that someone in my family left the back gate unlocked and my dog max got out. So I'm pissed off and we all go and search for him. I looked around the blocks nearby for almost an hour. Then I see my dad and he comes up and tells me that they found Max like 30 min ago and they've been looking for me for a long time. Lesson for the day always choose the car when searching for a dog it goes faster and you don't get lost